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I Met God & the Devil at Newport Beach by Kevin Huang

It is said that the Devil strikes when a man is at his lowest point. 

When a man is in his prime, he needs the help of no one, or so he tricks himself into thinking.  He is either too busy with himself, or the Devil already has him. 

But when a man is in need, and he is hungry and alone, that is when the opportunity for persuasion is at its greatest point. 

As the story is told, after 40 days of fasting the prophet and messiah Jesus was approached by the Devil in the desert.

 And so it was when I was approached, by an angel and a demon.  And to this day I wonder how the path of my life was affected by that fateful day. 

I was still a boy back in those days, stuck between a man and a boy.  The life I had known had been robbed from me, and I was thrust into the world heartbroken and alone.  

My entire life up until that point had been a lie I had believed, I had followed the path that society had laid out for me.  

I had graduated from a decent college, had a decent job, a nice apartment in a good city, money, a car, and sufficient material wealth.  On the surface it was fine, but inside it was hollow. 

The love of my life up till that point had left me for another, and there was nothing more that I wanted than to be with her – but that was impossible, I had already tried.  The job I had wasn’t something I particularly cared much for, and at that point all I really wanted was a gun to the head. 

Like many other surfers, the sea was all that I had.  On most days, every free moment was spent in the surf.  It was the only thing in my life that I ever wanted to do, and at that point in my life it was all I had left.    Thankfully, at least I was lucky enough that the “American dream” life had placed me in a city by the sea.  And so on most evenings, after work, I would catch the last rays of light and paddle out for an evening sesh, no matter how bad the waves were. 

 

It was on one such beautiful evening when I met the Devil

I was surfing Newport beach, the waves were small and shitty, but the water was refreshing and the sky was a hazy, golden orange.  The wind was slightly onshore, and the waves were about 1 to three feet – California size.  The last hour had basically sent a bunch of wind swell closeouts.  But still, it was nice to be in the water.  As much as I told myself I wanted a wave in those days, deep down I didn’t really care.    

And then, out of nowhere, a set wave came through.  Along our jetty only came a closeout, but further down the beach on another jetty further south, the wave came in, and a lone figure took off on it.  As if defying reality, the wave barreled, the silhouette pulled in, and then seconds later, made it out.  That was the first sign something was strange. 

I remember being mesmerized by the wave, it wasn’t till some people started chatting near me that I snapped out of it.  There were a few more people in the lineup now, but there were three who most drew my attention. 

 

Of those three, the third is faceless.  His only importance in my memory is that he was talking to the First.

The First was a man with an afro.  He had a big nose.  His skin was tanned.  He was lean.  Tall.  Strong, but lean.  Surfer build.  Middle Eastern complexion I remember thinking.

The water was perfect, we were all maybe wearing 3/2’s.

 

He had just gotten back from a trip to Bali, I overheard.  Insane waves.  Beautiful women.  Warm water.  Islands you had never even heard of.  Couldn’t even dream of.  Time of his life.  He was going back soon. I vaguely remember something about him losing his bag.

Other than that otherworldly barrel that steamrolled through off in the eerie, misty distance, there were no other waves of note from that session.  All I remember is that it felt so nice to be in the water.

I remember exiting, walking in the sand.  The cold sand felt so refreshing between my toes. 

 

That’s when the Second man came up to me. 

A young man, maybe 18?

He had a handsome face. 

Blonde hair, pale skin. 

Good jawline.  Shorter than me.

If you opened the Newport High School yearbook, he would have been the president.

 

Out of the blue, he told me I should come to the local church. 

“All are welcome.”  He said.  Something to the effect.

He had such a warm smile.

 

I still remember to this day.

I thanked him.

 

I thought about it. 

I had gone to church in college.  Overall great experience.  But something happened, I don’t remember what. 

I was dating a girl at the time.  I think that might have been what pulled me away.

 

But yes, I thanked him and walked away.

 

And then ran into the First man.

  

I ended up walking back alone with him to my car. 

We chatted.

 I don’t even remember what he said, or what we talked about.

 

All I know is that

 

He was taller than me. 

 

He had a big nose. 

 

And with God as my witness,

 

It took me 4 years

 

but,


I eventually became a surf photographer,

 

 and flew to Bali. 

 

**Fin**

Back to America by Kevin Huang

Just got back to America after 4 months in the jungle, and 3 months living with my family in Mexico.  It's quite a big shock actually, and i'm glad that I was able to get the chance to transition back into society by going to my uncle's house in Mexico first.  As soon as i got back to LA it was like full on circus.  I went to a Kanye concert the first night I was back with a really good friend of mine and it was pretty surreal to say the least.

The pace of life, navigating traffic, being on such a tight schedule, the things people were saying, even just how fast people were talking to me was really jarring.  

I was down in Mex for a bit as well the last few days to catch a swell.  This is a whole nother story for another day, but there were some pros out towing in the water one big day while I was down there and I encountered them while I was swimming.   I had had a pretty insane experience in the water that day - quite dangerous actually - and i figured it would be nice to get on the back of a ski next time.  So, when I saw them on the beach later that day I talked to them, and gave them my info.  

The first thing one of the guys asked was, " Do you have an Instagram?"

I did, but unfortunately it was more of a personal Instagram and I didn't really have any professional work on it.  A friend of mine had also talked to me about it a few days prior and so that really got the cogs turning in the back of my mind.

Down in Central America, the internet was so slow I didn't even really bother with social media - it was such a hassle that it wasn't even worth it.  Besides, when you're living out there, social media just seems so far away.  There's plenty of life to be lived in the moment, social media is not only just a giant waste of time, it's the last thing you want to do while you're down there.  It's STILL a waste of time in the "real world", and I still have this love/hate kind of relationship with it, but it's a sort of necessary evil.  Just like any modern technology it's just another tool to be used.  You can either be a slave to it, or you can use it for good, it's all about your personal relationship with it.  

Recently, I had been mulling over the idea in my head of actually being a surf photographer.  As in like, not just treating it like a hobby or a past time, but seriously devoting some time and energy into it.  Mexico really made me question that (again, another story), but I knew that if I wanted to succeed, I would have to devote some time to developing a social media following - specifically an Instagram following.  

I remember having this thought while sitting on my friend's porch in Santa Monica.  He lived in an extremely nice part of town, and there were cars going by, lights flashing in the distance.  Airplanes droned on overhead, and Netflix was streaming on the massive TV in the living room.  Although I didn't really want to - and technically, I didn't really HAVE to - I felt that at least for a time, till I got to a place where I wanted to be, that I would have to devote some time and energy into working on something greater than myself and fitting into the bigger picture.  

Social media is almost like a living metaphor for that.  Social media connects people around the world through text, sound, video and imagery.  There are literally people all over the world using Instagram.  As a photographer, you're basically the lifeblood of Instagram since it thrives off of photos and images.  There will always be a space and a demand for promising photographers and I knew that what I was producing had some potential.  Not only would it be good for business (my business), but it would be a way of giving back to the world.  And, that's one of the reasons I started doing this to begin with.  I want to inspire people and share with everyone my love for the ocean, the waves which travel upon it, and the surfers who ride them - from the perspective of a person - a surfer - who loves all of these things in an extremely special and personal way - my own.  

I remember finishing my cigarette and then just looking out into the street, surrounded by concrete and the first world.  As much as you try and avoid it, we are all part of society.  The effect is less in a place like Nicaragua although its tendrils reach you even there.  However, ironically, places like Nica are much more free than many places in America.  Returning to civilization, to America, really made me understand just how caught up I was - how caught up we all are-  in its web.  Returning to civilization isn't just about realizing where you are, but it's about realizing where you fit in it all.

And for some of us, the answer is, we don't really fit in anywhere.

However, for me, the situation isn't so dire.  Deep in the core of my being I know I need to return to Central America.  However, right now, I need to see what I can bring back with me from the jungle to to city.  And when the time comes for me to return to the jungle, I'll hopefully have everything set up for me for my return to civilization as well.  

Duality.  Freedom.  Everything.  That is what I want.  I know how to get there, it's just a matter of getting it done.

 

The South Bay Los Angeles